i'm back. update. .001
he's wearing your clothes
head down to toes, a reaction to you
you say you know what he did
but you idiot kid, you don't have a clue .002
you're standing at the door, i'm falling to the floor
you look even better than you did before
i'm staring at my feet wondering if i can do this
it's been a while, but i couldn't forget you. .003
i should have known better than to breathe you
in the first time. i held you there for just a second,
but the mistake was mine. now i can't take my
hands off you, i can't keep my hands off you. .004
a picture of you holding a picture of
me in the pocket of my blue jeans.
still don't know what love means. .005
i've got your ring around my neck,
and a couple nights i don't regret
you've got a dream of a degree,
and a shirt that smells like me. .006
there's no rhyme and there's no reason.
you're the secret in the back of my skull.
there's no logic, so please believe me.
our love's confusing but it never gets dull. .007
everything was so worthless,
i didn't deserve this.
but to me, you were perfect. .008
stay mad as long as you can.
because once you're not mad anymore,
it hurts. it hurts like hell and once it hurts
that bad, you can't make yourself mad anymore. .009
I asked you once
I told you twice.
Why can't you keep her
out of your life?
© by me .010
you try to strip my dignity,
but that won't work with me.
you tell me things are different now.
why can't it just be me? .011
fast forward just three days ago,
i had it all and i let it go. another
reckless night and i hurt you again.
and after the fifth or sixth drink,
i didn't care what you would think. .012
so tonight your hopes fall and break the molds of fate.
your tear ducts run dry, you’re bleeding all this paint.
so take back your lies and hold them all inside,
just tell me the truth, atleast for just one night. .013
and made it all that much easier to lie
but that's nothing that I'm proud of
i'm making an example out of you
this is a preview .014
i'm afraid of spending my time with others,
i want to savour every moment and not forget.
i want to feel the minutes and seconds pass with no regrets.
i want to feel as though i lived. .015
i used to smile alot and talk about love.
but now i'm all alone and my hair is so long.
so long i'll see you in a month or two.
don't write to me, i won't write about you. no photographs today. just words. -micah | 